“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life,
what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear.
Who of you by
worrying can add a single hour to his life?”
Matthew 6:25-27 (NIV)
Recently, my devotional reading was about worry. The author,
Sarah Young, (Jesus Calling), used the phrases “form of unbelief” and “anathema
to me.” (Each devotion is written from the point of view of Jesus.)
In my Christian walk, I learned that worry was the opposite
of or shortage of faith. As I read the words “form of unbelief,” I felt my
heart quicken; had I been worrying about something that needed to be given to
the Lord?
Quite possibly, I had been worried about some health issues
my husband has been dealing with.
Whenever the weather forecast for our son’s area, Hubby
tells me I should be in prayer about him. Sometimes this causes me mild
anxiety. A week before his trip home the region south of him had tornadoes.
Three of our friends called to inquire how he was. All three of us felt touched
by the kindness shown by these close friends.
On a recent Sunday, our pastoral assistant spoke during our
church’s two worship services.
My “Saturday Night Insomnia” struck me hard. I had set my
alarm to give me enough time to try to attend the early service. I believe I
was worried about getting up in time because an hour before my alarm was to go off;
I turned on the television and watched a program. Resetting the alarm, I dozed
but when it did ring, I woke in a stupor. Again, I changed the time for the
alarm to ring. I still felt almost drugged when I awoke.
The next afternoon, a friend and I stopped in at the church
office. I had earlier emailed our pastoral assistant and explained my absence.
While we were there, I told the pastor I needed to apologize for not being in
worship. I told him what had happened. He told me he understood and that I
didn’t have anything to apologize for.
I believe my worry was over the fact that our pastoral
assistant is a friend and, on the Sunday before, she had asked me to pray for
her. When I saw her on that Monday, I asked for a copy of her message which she
gave me. It was an excellent message; God was in it.
I have been a believer in Jesus for several years and He
still teaches me, every day.
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