“Be still and know I am God” Psalm 46:10
Journal Entry from 2/19/1997
For the next seven days, meditation time will be on silence. Disciplines for the Inner Life
has several excerpts from writers on silence.
Dietrich
Bonheoffer, in Life Together, speaks of silence as a
friend. “We practice silence before we hear the Word because we are directed to
the Word (in preparation)*. We are silent after hearing the Word because the
word is still speaking to us (in reflection)*.”
Bonhoeffer is in the same view when he speaks of our days.
“We are silent at the beginning of each day because God should have the first
word. . .” (This is hard to practice but it needs to be done,)* . . . we are silent at the end of the day
before going to sleep because the lat word belongs to God. (I believe this
applies to a lot more than each day.)
My thoughts on this are just recently muddled; I have to
interrupt my meditation on silence, (the written part)* but I can be silent
while I prepare myself to go out with my husband and file taxes.
2/22/1997
“Silence is the very presence of God—always there. But
activity hides it. We need to leave activity long enough to discover the
presence—then we can return to activity with it.” (M. Basil Pennington)
The longer I live for God, the more I appreciate the
silence. God can speak only when we intently listen. I can identify with the
above quote. Lord, please continue to allow me to enjoy the silence and thereby
to be able to experience your presence in my daily life. My life has been
topsy-turvy this week but You have been there for me and I appreciate knowing
You were with me.
I had to tell a relative something that could have seemed
mean but I had to tell her these things out of love. My friend Shirley calls it “speaking the truth in love.” My
relative seemed to listen; I do know that we didn’t go into a shouting match.
2/23/1997
“Unfortunately, in seeing ourselves as we truly are, not all
we see is beautiful and attractive. This is undoubtedly part of the reason we
flee silence. We do not want to be confronted with our hypocrisy and phoniness.
We see how false and fragile the false self we project is. We have to go
through this painful experience to come to our true self.” M. Basil Pennington
God is the only one who knows the real me. He made me, knit
me together in that secret place (Psalm 139:13-15) He knows the REAL me. I have had to come to grips with who I am,
with what I like and what I wish to do.
When we try to project ‘an image’ of who we think we are,
we—in a sense—betray God’s working in His creation and ultimately we betray God
Himself. God doesn’t like false things because He is Truth.
We, as His children need to learn to communicate this truth
to those we encounter in our lives.
2/24/97-
Silence—in order to listen better we need to practice
silence. In order to reflect on events we are to implement silence. In order to
maintain contact with or hear God we are to practice the art of silence.
Last summer, our church went through a very hard time; a
couple’s marital problems spilled over into the church. All we heard was
one-sided—from one of the two parties, the other party chose to maintain
control of emotions and practiced silence. My heart still thinks of the silence
practicing one as the stronger one.
Monks take vows of poverty, chastity, and sometimes even
silence. I always understood the former two vows. It was not exactly clear to
me why they took a vow of silence until today. They were silent because they
deeply desired to hear God and his leading for their daily lives.
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Update: I still try to practice the discipline of silence. I
didn’t realize it but I try to observe silence when I rise and just before I
retire for the evening.
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